我认错了。
性格“太直”，头脑太简单并不是件好事。
因为我这愚蠢的个性，我被好多人蒙骗，被好多人伤害。
但...
我很不愿意逼自己把头脑变得不简单。我还不想这么快走进虚伪，心机重的现实世界。
我...很矛盾。
I'm very disheartened by the fact that some of my family members have to put on a mask while facing one another. Treating each other hypocritically.
Only I, the dumb one, the simpleton, foolishly thought that their feelings, their words and their emotions were true.
My willingness to believe them turns out to be an action of utter foolery.
They had me completely fooled.
However it was my own wishful thinking that family members should be truthful to each other. I could understand why they have to put up a false appearence towards everyone. 'False appearence-ing' was the basic tactic to prevent them from getting hurt by reality. Moreover they are my family, how can I not try to pardon them?
I'm feeling rather ambivalence now...
Nevertheless...
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Though, they can't be true, even to their own family members, I hope that they would at least be true to themselves.
Jean