A sense of fear overwhelms me again.
Its a nagging fear that has been bugging me for so long.
Oppression, in the past, used to work out fine. However recently, when I tried to oppress this nagging fear, it seemed to be quite useless.
I can neither avoid it nor face it.
I don't want to show others my fear, so I try hiding it. I hid it so well, no one noticed that this fear had bugged me for so long. I coerced myself into being another individual when I'm in front of others. I'm not myself.
Time doesn't make any noise. It will crept by quietly and unknowingly. I knew very well that one day, what I feared will come true. I felt so helpless, I can't do anything to stop it from happening.
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Jean