之前，我迟迟没有把我对这次O水准会考最深的感触给写出来的原因是因为我一直在等待今天。
今天，我终于可以把我心中的那块大石放下。
今天，我终于可以很高兴的说O水准，总算告一段落了。
我很欣慰，历史并没有重演。我很欣慰，我的努力总算没有白费。
好多人都跟我说，13分都不算很好，不明白为什么我会这么开心。
我通常只对他们笑了笑就走开了。
他们不了解我的故事，他们不懂我背后的历史，他们不明白我之前所经历过的有多么艰难。
我曾经是个小六会考成绩只拿到190的学生。优越的成绩，从小到大永远没有我的份。比起身边的表姐妹们，我的学术永远是最烂的。我那时很讨厌参加家庭聚会。因为我的亲戚一有机会，就会在一旁冷嘲热讽。所以别说好成绩，就算是平平的成绩，也是我梦寐以求的。
感谢有一位老师对我不离不弃因为从来没有人相信我会做得到，就连妈妈也说我得13分，进了Tampines Junior College是个奇迹。
虽然13分还是比不过我表姐的7分。但我很满足，很开心了。
不是想要炫耀我的故事，我的成就（基本上我也没有什么成就可言）。
在这里我有一句话要对两个看不起我的人说∶
“谁说，有些人一直努力都不会成功？虽然现在我说不上什么成功，但总有一天我会证明给你们看，不只有那些优异的人会成功，只要肯努力，像我这样的人也会成功！"
Jean
Friday, January 30, 2009
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
面具
他们都有一幅面具。
他们无时无刻的都戴着它。
他们很厉害因为，
他们可以用面具虚伪待人。
他们可以躲在面具后面不断伤人。
他们可以利用面具隐藏丑陋的自己。
因为他们的面具厚得让人不易看破。
我受伤，不是因为他们在我背后说的恶言恶语。
我受伤，是因为他们是我真心真意视他们如家人的亲戚。
我受伤，是因为他们欺骗了我。
我受伤，是因为他们践踏了我给他们的爱。
或许，我没有资格批评他们。我自己也何尝不是个戴着面具处事待人的人？只不过，我没他们厉害，我比他们笨点，蠢点。我不懂得怎样充分的利用我的面具。
Jean
他们无时无刻的都戴着它。
他们很厉害因为，
他们可以用面具虚伪待人。
他们可以躲在面具后面不断伤人。
他们可以利用面具隐藏丑陋的自己。
因为他们的面具厚得让人不易看破。
我受伤，不是因为他们在我背后说的恶言恶语。
我受伤，是因为他们是我真心真意视他们如家人的亲戚。
我受伤，是因为他们欺骗了我。
我受伤，是因为他们践踏了我给他们的爱。
或许，我没有资格批评他们。我自己也何尝不是个戴着面具处事待人的人？只不过，我没他们厉害，我比他们笨点，蠢点。我不懂得怎样充分的利用我的面具。
Jean
Friday, January 23, 2009
YAY!!! HOLIDAY
Yes guilty as charged, I'm an unpassionate employee. I pended for lunch break when I start working at 9am, I pended for dismissal after lunch break and this cycle goes on and on during every working day. :P
As you can see how boring the work can be.
Finally CNY HOLIDAYS ARE HERE!!!!
I'M FREE!!!!
WAA HOOO!!!
Jean
As you can see how boring the work can be.
Finally CNY HOLIDAYS ARE HERE!!!!
I'M FREE!!!!
WAA HOOO!!!
Jean
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Ridiculous OT
I was dismissed from work and went home at 6 this evening.
I was called back for OT at 9 in the night.
Now I'm still working in the office.
How cool :) (I'm being sarcastic here)
Suddenly I missed the old days where I could go back to school like every secondary school student instead of working. If I'm still studying in secondary school, I would be finishing up my homework and would be preparing for sleep now. Instead of working OTs... BOO!!!
I want to go home! I want to sleep! I hardly can lift up my eye lids now!
*BAWL!!!
*SOB!!!
Jean :(
I was called back for OT at 9 in the night.
Now I'm still working in the office.
How cool :) (I'm being sarcastic here)
Suddenly I missed the old days where I could go back to school like every secondary school student instead of working. If I'm still studying in secondary school, I would be finishing up my homework and would be preparing for sleep now. Instead of working OTs... BOO!!!
I want to go home! I want to sleep! I hardly can lift up my eye lids now!
*BAWL!!!
*SOB!!!
Jean :(
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Lethargic
Even Mum can't stand my lethargicness during work so she gave me a leave today.
However, I felt more listless than before.
I thought I could sleep for the whole day, however I carelessly forgot that I had dental appointment today, so I had to rush all my way to NDC and *Poof! There goes my resting time. :(
Net went for Pahang Camp, so I'm alone. I felt extremely bored as theres no one for me to tease.
I'm working on a huge project and its due on the 31 Jan 2009. This project was meant to be kept secret so I shouldn't reveal much. :P
Muhahaha
Jean
However, I felt more listless than before.
I thought I could sleep for the whole day, however I carelessly forgot that I had dental appointment today, so I had to rush all my way to NDC and *Poof! There goes my resting time. :(
Net went for Pahang Camp, so I'm alone. I felt extremely bored as theres no one for me to tease.
I'm working on a huge project and its due on the 31 Jan 2009. This project was meant to be kept secret so I shouldn't reveal much. :P
Muhahaha
Jean
Monday, January 19, 2009
Blues
I can predict.
I'll be suffering from 'Everyday Blues' this week.
The tempo of my work had been so monotonous lately, that I'm gradually losing my concentration and gets distracted very easily.
Work gets really frustrating when I have to decipher my clients' illegible handwriting, where the 6 looks like 0 and 0 looks like 6 and where 3 looks like 5 and 5 looks like 3. :(
I'm an accounting assistant, not a decipherer. "People please write neatly can?!?!"
Frustrated.
Jean
I'll be suffering from 'Everyday Blues' this week.
The tempo of my work had been so monotonous lately, that I'm gradually losing my concentration and gets distracted very easily.
Work gets really frustrating when I have to decipher my clients' illegible handwriting, where the 6 looks like 0 and 0 looks like 6 and where 3 looks like 5 and 5 looks like 3. :(
I'm an accounting assistant, not a decipherer. "People please write neatly can?!?!"
Frustrated.
Jean
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Looking Forward
Yes yes, I had OT yesterday. And guess what..... OT ended at 12am instead of 9!!!!!
Don't laugh. Its not very funny. :(
Well one more week to CNY.
Can't imagine the number of "Hong-Baos" (red packets) I'll be receiving!!! Muahahahaha!!!
Mum and I will be shopping for CNY necessities next week. Yes, yes I know other people had already done their shopping. Well, I've done my part by suggesting to Mum that if we only start buying next week, we will lose out, as what we will be buying are leftovers. So we should start buying three weeks ago.
Guess how Mum replied?
She said: "I know! But with you around, the snacks couldn't last till CNY! And when that happens I'll have to buy them all over again. This is a good way to save money. So shouldn't we all blame you for having to buy leftovers?"
!!!
OK, so what if I'm a glutton?
Oh and I have to pay respect to my late grandparents on the first day of CNY. I need to thank them for my good grades!!! (Yes, I'm very superstitious.)
Thats all for now. Looking forward!!!
Jean
Don't laugh. Its not very funny. :(
Well one more week to CNY.
Can't imagine the number of "Hong-Baos" (red packets) I'll be receiving!!! Muahahahaha!!!
Mum and I will be shopping for CNY necessities next week. Yes, yes I know other people had already done their shopping. Well, I've done my part by suggesting to Mum that if we only start buying next week, we will lose out, as what we will be buying are leftovers. So we should start buying three weeks ago.
Guess how Mum replied?
She said: "I know! But with you around, the snacks couldn't last till CNY! And when that happens I'll have to buy them all over again. This is a good way to save money. So shouldn't we all blame you for having to buy leftovers?"
!!!
OK, so what if I'm a glutton?
Oh and I have to pay respect to my late grandparents on the first day of CNY. I need to thank them for my good grades!!! (Yes, I'm very superstitious.)
Thats all for now. Looking forward!!!
Jean
Friday, January 16, 2009
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Results
Who said students to tends to be more exhausted on school days than non-school days? Well, I'm a student, and I'm extremely exhausted on non-school days than school days!!! I HATE WORKING 9 to 5!!! I'm yawning all day!!!
OK my results.
Now, I'm finally convinced that if one bothers to put in effort, history will never repeats itself.
AND... I DID IT!!! I FINALLY DID IT!!! My effort paid off afterall!!! Overall I did pretty well and I got an A1 for Combine Humanities!!!! What a miracle!!!
Hahahaha!!!!
Beside myself, I would also like to thank my parents and for being so supportive and of course all my teachers (Especially Miss Soh, If it wasn't for her, I wouldn't get my A1 for C.Hum) for being there when I needed them.
I love myself for being such a clever girl!!! :P
Jean
OK my results.
Now, I'm finally convinced that if one bothers to put in effort, history will never repeats itself.
AND... I DID IT!!! I FINALLY DID IT!!! My effort paid off afterall!!! Overall I did pretty well and I got an A1 for Combine Humanities!!!! What a miracle!!!
Hahahaha!!!!
Beside myself, I would also like to thank my parents and for being so supportive and of course all my teachers (Especially Miss Soh, If it wasn't for her, I wouldn't get my A1 for C.Hum) for being there when I needed them.
I love myself for being such a clever girl!!! :P
Jean
Sunday, January 11, 2009
A belated first post for the year 2009
As I was unable to free myself from all the hectic work that I'm been assigned to during the past few weeks, heres my belated Happy new Year to everyone. :D
I'm working overtime today so as to compensate for my leave tomorrow and the day after next.
Why take a leave tomorrow you ask?
Hmmm.... Well tomorrow is my big day!!! I'm getting my results!!!
And why the leave the day after next?
Well, If I did well, I would need 24 hours to celebrate!!! However on the other hand, if I didn't do very well I need 24 hours to cry you know. :D
Haha.
Actually the real reason is: Those sickening renovators are coming on Tuesday to finish their finishing touches. I need to be around to monitor them.
Again, Happy belated New Year and happy Chinese New Year in advance people!!!
Jean
I'm working overtime today so as to compensate for my leave tomorrow and the day after next.
Why take a leave tomorrow you ask?
Hmmm.... Well tomorrow is my big day!!! I'm getting my results!!!
And why the leave the day after next?
Well, If I did well, I would need 24 hours to celebrate!!! However on the other hand, if I didn't do very well I need 24 hours to cry you know. :D
Haha.
Actually the real reason is: Those sickening renovators are coming on Tuesday to finish their finishing touches. I need to be around to monitor them.
Again, Happy belated New Year and happy Chinese New Year in advance people!!!
Jean