感情线 By Tension
手心
那条感情线和世界上什么人相连
虽然谈着恋爱
虽然也会失恋
怎么花了时间没一个有缘
走在混乱的街头
找不到爱情真正入口
有时下错了车
有时上错了楼
直到那一刻直到她出现
She's the one 那是种神秘直觉
She's the one 她是我的等待
那一天
擦肩而过当眼神交会
再也舍不得离开
She's the one 有一种触电感觉
She's the one 她就是今生的爱
感情线
两手相连连成一线
微笑的弧线
手心
那条感情线和世界上什么人相连
虽然谈着恋爱
虽然也会失恋
怎么花了时间没一个有缘
走在混乱的街头
找不到爱情真正入口
有时下错了车
有时上错了楼
直到那一刻直到她出现
She's the one 那是种神秘直觉
She's the one 她是我的等待
那一天
擦肩而过当眼神交会
再也舍不得离开
She's the one 有一种触电感觉
She's the one 她就是今生的爱
感情线
两手相连连成一线
幸福的笑脸
Oh, 我在心里放着烟火
不必再唱寂寞的歌
She's the one 我终于找到了
有真爱属于我 就是她
She's the one 那是种神秘直觉
She's the one 她是我的等待
那一天
擦肩而过当眼神交会
再也舍不得离开
She's the one 有一种触电感觉
She's the one 她就是今生的爱
感情线
两手相连连成一线
I know she's the one
Love the song ^^ HAHAHA!!!
Jean
Friday, November 12, 2010
Thursday, November 11, 2010
The Moon and Stars
I'm glad that my bed is just by the window.
So everynight I'm given the privilege to enjoy the moonlight and the stars (if theres any) to my heart's content.
I guess I'm lucky tonight.
I spotted a few more sparkling dots in the dark sky. :)
Staring at those shiny little things makes me very happy. (Well judging by how I'm feeling down and moody lately, even if the happiness only lasted for a mere second, its good enough.)
Theres a reason why I love the moon and the stars.
When night falls and its pitch dark out there; When everything just seems hopeless and lonely, I'm glad that the stars and the moon are there to light up my path and show me the way.
I see hope.
Right now, fallen, again so low, and tangled with myriad problems, what I'm looking forward everyday would be the time when I'm able to quietly enjoy the stars and moon.
Its my only comfort.
Its my only way out.
...
...
I'm not expecting much now.
Even if this means that I really cannot make it to a Local U.
So far, I've done my learning justice. I've given my best shot.
Whether YOU people believe it or not, it doesn't matter anymore. Go ahead and grimace in disbelief, or simply just disagree with what I'm doing, I don't care anymore, because ultimately, its MY life.
Jean
So everynight I'm given the privilege to enjoy the moonlight and the stars (if theres any) to my heart's content.
I guess I'm lucky tonight.
I spotted a few more sparkling dots in the dark sky. :)
Staring at those shiny little things makes me very happy. (Well judging by how I'm feeling down and moody lately, even if the happiness only lasted for a mere second, its good enough.)
Theres a reason why I love the moon and the stars.
When night falls and its pitch dark out there; When everything just seems hopeless and lonely, I'm glad that the stars and the moon are there to light up my path and show me the way.
I see hope.
Right now, fallen, again so low, and tangled with myriad problems, what I'm looking forward everyday would be the time when I'm able to quietly enjoy the stars and moon.
Its my only comfort.
Its my only way out.
...
...
I'm not expecting much now.
Even if this means that I really cannot make it to a Local U.
So far, I've done my learning justice. I've given my best shot.
Whether YOU people believe it or not, it doesn't matter anymore. Go ahead and grimace in disbelief, or simply just disagree with what I'm doing, I don't care anymore, because ultimately, its MY life.
Jean
Bugged
I think I'm going to explode.
There are nagging worries that have been bugging me since weeks ago.
I'm trying desperately to get them out of my head.
As a matter of fact, (please don't be surprise) I feel more at ease during examinations.
Depressingly, after 3 hours (or less) of churning out information from my brain, anxieties sink in again.
The problem lies with me, not any one else.
I'm so tired with myself.
I'm exhausted.
How I wish I can just wash my hands off me, and proceed on with life.
Though I'm selfish, but I don't leave people behind.
I CANNOT leave myself behind.
I realised that the world doesn't revolve around you.
So its not true, when you think that everything will be fine, as long as you are only answerable to yourself.
Somehow, somethings/decisions that I've done or made, which will only affect, me, myself, my life, I feel that I have to be answerable to so many people.
WHY?
Why do I have to strive so hard, just to meet YOUR expectations?
Help.
I'm going crazy soon.
(All of the time, personal crisis just has to set in now.)
You know some people say, if your are in pain, you will feel better if you cry?
Perhaps... I really need a good cry.
Jean
There are nagging worries that have been bugging me since weeks ago.
I'm trying desperately to get them out of my head.
As a matter of fact, (please don't be surprise) I feel more at ease during examinations.
Depressingly, after 3 hours (or less) of churning out information from my brain, anxieties sink in again.
The problem lies with me, not any one else.
I'm so tired with myself.
I'm exhausted.
How I wish I can just wash my hands off me, and proceed on with life.
Though I'm selfish, but I don't leave people behind.
I CANNOT leave myself behind.
I realised that the world doesn't revolve around you.
So its not true, when you think that everything will be fine, as long as you are only answerable to yourself.
Somehow, somethings/decisions that I've done or made, which will only affect, me, myself, my life, I feel that I have to be answerable to so many people.
WHY?
Why do I have to strive so hard, just to meet YOUR expectations?
Help.
I'm going crazy soon.
(All of the time, personal crisis just has to set in now.)
You know some people say, if your are in pain, you will feel better if you cry?
Perhaps... I really need a good cry.
Jean
Monday, November 8, 2010
Need a breather
My mind is plaque by troubles.
I can actually feel myself, unable to breathe because of those frustrating unresolved issues that are bottled inside me, now trying choke me by the throat.
Its like a turmoil going on and on in my head.
I blame the stress.
I think the trip is not a bad idea afterall.
Maybe I really need sometime off. A break from all the troubles.
Yes its escaping, but right now, besides escaping, I really don't know what to do.
I wanna leave now.
I'm really tired with myself.
Jean
I can actually feel myself, unable to breathe because of those frustrating unresolved issues that are bottled inside me, now trying choke me by the throat.
Its like a turmoil going on and on in my head.
I blame the stress.
I think the trip is not a bad idea afterall.
Maybe I really need sometime off. A break from all the troubles.
Yes its escaping, but right now, besides escaping, I really don't know what to do.
I wanna leave now.
I'm really tired with myself.
Jean
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Spendthrift
Ah yes. Its drizzling outside with lightning flashing inconsistently.
A weather just nice to cuddle myself under my quilt and turn in for the day. (It would be better of course, to do away with the thunder and have a storm. ^^)
However of course, I'm a student mugging for A levels, I'm stripped of the privilege of doing so.
So here I am, again, blogging at this hour, with piles and piles of Chemistry notes and books laid before me, and this slow/laggy net-book of mine.
Oh, speaking of storm, did I ever mention that I'm afraid of thunder?
If I could remember accurately, maybe once, subtly, in one of my previous posts. Haha!
Yes, I'm afraid of thunder. I don't show it, but that does not mean that I'm not. :P
Nobody knew, haha, it WAS a secret. However, since now I've openly confessed this fear of mine, I guess its no longer a secret anymore. Besides, its really not something worth being secretive about. Haha.
Anyway, I need to rid myself of the habit of being a spendthrift.
Sometimes you just need that spur of impulse to make you spend prodigiously - usually on things that you really don't need.
I need to control that impulse. T_T
I bought myself a bottle of... juice.... I think.
Mainly because the bottle has a cute figure. ^^
But the juice just taste... awful (is that the word?).
After you have swallowed it, it leaves an unpleasant lingering weird sensation around/at your throat.
The worse part is, it wasn't cheap. T_T
I've been cheated. T_T
Jean
A weather just nice to cuddle myself under my quilt and turn in for the day. (It would be better of course, to do away with the thunder and have a storm. ^^)
However of course, I'm a student mugging for A levels, I'm stripped of the privilege of doing so.
So here I am, again, blogging at this hour, with piles and piles of Chemistry notes and books laid before me, and this slow/laggy net-book of mine.
Oh, speaking of storm, did I ever mention that I'm afraid of thunder?
If I could remember accurately, maybe once, subtly, in one of my previous posts. Haha!
Yes, I'm afraid of thunder. I don't show it, but that does not mean that I'm not. :P
Nobody knew, haha, it WAS a secret. However, since now I've openly confessed this fear of mine, I guess its no longer a secret anymore. Besides, its really not something worth being secretive about. Haha.
Anyway, I need to rid myself of the habit of being a spendthrift.
Sometimes you just need that spur of impulse to make you spend prodigiously - usually on things that you really don't need.
I need to control that impulse. T_T
I bought myself a bottle of... juice.... I think.
Mainly because the bottle has a cute figure. ^^
But the juice just taste... awful (is that the word?).
After you have swallowed it, it leaves an unpleasant lingering weird sensation around/at your throat.
The worse part is, it wasn't cheap. T_T
I've been cheated. T_T
Jean
Saturday, November 6, 2010
Roles
Stress has invaded my mind these few days.
I'll get all uptight and upset about major stuffs as well as minor stuffs easily.
But don't worry, I'll get over it.
As compared to yesterday, revision was more fruitful today. Memorizing is torturous but then again, its only for these few weeks, I shall endure without complains.
While thunder clashes and lightning strikes, with howling wind coupled with pounding rain trying to break my window, here am I, blogging at this ungodly hour - when I should be memorizing the mechanism of Nucleophilic Substitution and the reaction pathways for Organic Chemistry - along with a cuppa tea, nice and cozy. (I predict there will be a storm tonight - best weather to tuck myself under my cozy quilt and drift off to my dreamland. ^^)
Anyway, I've been trying hard to balance my role as a daughter, an elder sister and now as a girlfriend.
I've always thought that all these roles are separate entities, non of which would have conflict in interest with one another.
However, I realised that I was wrong.
I'm quite experienced in terms of being a daughter, 19 years in fact. Also, not to mention, 16 years of experience of being an elder sister.
However, less so as a girlfriend.
Though above said, while trying hard to play my role well as a girlfriend, I failed as a daughter and a sister.
I failed to understand.
I failed to consider their feelings.
Then, when I'm trying to make things right, I screwed up my role as a girlfriend.
I'm sorry but I'm selfish.
I never knew it would be so difficult.
Maybe we are all new to the change, and we are trying hard to make adjustments.
We'll adapt, soon enough.
We all need time.
Jean
I'll get all uptight and upset about major stuffs as well as minor stuffs easily.
But don't worry, I'll get over it.
As compared to yesterday, revision was more fruitful today. Memorizing is torturous but then again, its only for these few weeks, I shall endure without complains.
While thunder clashes and lightning strikes, with howling wind coupled with pounding rain trying to break my window, here am I, blogging at this ungodly hour - when I should be memorizing the mechanism of Nucleophilic Substitution and the reaction pathways for Organic Chemistry - along with a cuppa tea, nice and cozy. (I predict there will be a storm tonight - best weather to tuck myself under my cozy quilt and drift off to my dreamland. ^^)
Anyway, I've been trying hard to balance my role as a daughter, an elder sister and now as a girlfriend.
I've always thought that all these roles are separate entities, non of which would have conflict in interest with one another.
However, I realised that I was wrong.
I'm quite experienced in terms of being a daughter, 19 years in fact. Also, not to mention, 16 years of experience of being an elder sister.
However, less so as a girlfriend.
Though above said, while trying hard to play my role well as a girlfriend, I failed as a daughter and a sister.
I failed to understand.
I failed to consider their feelings.
Then, when I'm trying to make things right, I screwed up my role as a girlfriend.
I'm sorry but I'm selfish.
I never knew it would be so difficult.
Maybe we are all new to the change, and we are trying hard to make adjustments.
We'll adapt, soon enough.
We all need time.
Jean
Friday, November 5, 2010
Monkey
Studying wasn't as fruitful as the previous days today.
Heres a picture of it ^^
My brain isn't working or absorbing properly.
Sigh~
But fret not, I'm quite on schedule so, still ok. ^^
Anyway, hope tomorrow will be better. :)
Went groceries shopping with daddy and mummy just now and I brought a Monkey home. ^^
Its quite adorable actually haha.
Heres a picture of it ^^
How adorable :)
LOL!!!
Til Then
Jean
Thursday, November 4, 2010
A surge of emotions
Despite my countless whines about how I'm having a difficult time trying to get A levels over and done with, and my numerous claims that the life after A levels will most probably be trouble-and-stress-free.
I know all my friends will disagree but, a part of me, indeed wish for time to just pause for a moment... Right Here, Right Now.
The sudden thought of leaving the school scares me.
Soon I'll have to face the wilderness of the real world, more or less... Alone. No longer sheltered.
With the exception of family members, I have no one left to tell me what to do or not to do.
It has dawned on me that, after this 4 weeks, we will all part and go different ways.
Another goodbye.
(Of course there will be a handful that will stay, while the other handful will leave.)
However fret not.
Though we are no longer bound within school compound, we are more now, bound by hearts that connect.
I sincerely hope everyone, the best of luck for you future endeavours.
PS: Suddenly overwhelmed by a surge of emotions.
Jean
I know all my friends will disagree but, a part of me, indeed wish for time to just pause for a moment... Right Here, Right Now.
The sudden thought of leaving the school scares me.
Soon I'll have to face the wilderness of the real world, more or less... Alone. No longer sheltered.
With the exception of family members, I have no one left to tell me what to do or not to do.
It has dawned on me that, after this 4 weeks, we will all part and go different ways.
Another goodbye.
(Of course there will be a handful that will stay, while the other handful will leave.)
However fret not.
Though we are no longer bound within school compound, we are more now, bound by hearts that connect.
I sincerely hope everyone, the best of luck for you future endeavours.
PS: Suddenly overwhelmed by a surge of emotions.
Jean
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Endure
OK.
TZY, you really need to stop distracting yourself.
I know post A lvl events are exciting but please, control yourself!!!
I'm suggesting, whenever you are distracted, just knock yourself against the wall.
So when you are out cold, you wouldn't think about your distractions anymore. ^^
Lol...
4 weeks are like years!!!
ENDURE!!!
Jean
TZY, you really need to stop distracting yourself.
I know post A lvl events are exciting but please, control yourself!!!
I'm suggesting, whenever you are distracted, just knock yourself against the wall.
So when you are out cold, you wouldn't think about your distractions anymore. ^^
Lol...
4 weeks are like years!!!
ENDURE!!!
Jean
Monday, November 1, 2010
NOVEMBER
YAY!!! ITS FINALLY NOVEMBER!!!
The dreadful 2010 is ending soon!!! ^^
A level commences next week.
OK. I need to get a full A level cert in order to proceed with the next stage of my plan.
So PRESS ON!!!
Turbo mugging this week.
HANG IN THERE CAUSE ITS JUST 4 WEEKS TO THE END OF THE BATTLE (FROM NOW)!!!
GO GO GO!!!
Jean
The dreadful 2010 is ending soon!!! ^^
A level commences next week.
OK. I need to get a full A level cert in order to proceed with the next stage of my plan.
So PRESS ON!!!
Turbo mugging this week.
HANG IN THERE CAUSE ITS JUST 4 WEEKS TO THE END OF THE BATTLE (FROM NOW)!!!
GO GO GO!!!
Jean