Darn you rashes!!!
Made me looked extremely germy!!!
Jean
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
BACK FROM CAMP!!!
I'm back!
Orientation Camp was FUN!!!
I've decided... I want to be OGL!!!
At first, I was very whiney about the camp. I don't really know anyone in my CG well. But in the end, everything turns out pretty well. My CG are full of wonderful people; the Student Councilors and OGLs were enthusiastic and GREAT!
Adeline said that I finally not "TMS-Sick" anymore. I'm pretty happy to hear that. This means that I can finally let go of TMS, adapt to changes around me and accept TPJC. WOO YAY! Nevertheless, I think I will still think of TMS, and will have the urge to go back. But, I will control myself until time allows.
At the same time, my ring finger had finally gotten use to its life without the ring. I'm very happy for it. Even though sometimes when it sees the ring, it still has the urge to put it back on, it held back the urge and put it away, until time allows.
I wish the camp could last abit longer. I love the Mass Dances, the telematches, Soul Night and Morning blast!!! I love cheering in the middle of the night with the school. I love my CG:09S10!!! my two wonderful OGLs!!! and my FAMILY: FALCON!!!
"FALCON WILL WIN THE WAR!!!" X3
YAY!!!!
Till Then
Jean
Orientation Camp was FUN!!!
I've decided... I want to be OGL!!!
At first, I was very whiney about the camp. I don't really know anyone in my CG well. But in the end, everything turns out pretty well. My CG are full of wonderful people; the Student Councilors and OGLs were enthusiastic and GREAT!
Adeline said that I finally not "TMS-Sick" anymore. I'm pretty happy to hear that. This means that I can finally let go of TMS, adapt to changes around me and accept TPJC. WOO YAY! Nevertheless, I think I will still think of TMS, and will have the urge to go back. But, I will control myself until time allows.
At the same time, my ring finger had finally gotten use to its life without the ring. I'm very happy for it. Even though sometimes when it sees the ring, it still has the urge to put it back on, it held back the urge and put it away, until time allows.
I wish the camp could last abit longer. I love the Mass Dances, the telematches, Soul Night and Morning blast!!! I love cheering in the middle of the night with the school. I love my CG:09S10!!! my two wonderful OGLs!!! and my FAMILY: FALCON!!!
"FALCON WILL WIN THE WAR!!!" X3
YAY!!!!
Till Then
Jean
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Planned
I had my career route planned.
I'll go for ACCA and become an auditor, a CPA singapore, for 5 to 10 years. If possible, I'll go for a mid-career change to become a POA teacher in secondary school. If possible, I would want to go back to teach in TMS. :P
I said, If Possible.
Which means if not possible, I 'll just stay and continue to be an auditor or an accountant for the rest of my life.
So no matter what I'll have to hang on and clear my A levels.
What a drag...
3 months ago I'm struggling with O'levels and now, ahead of me is A levels. Will this ever come to an end?
Till then
Cheers
Jean
I'll go for ACCA and become an auditor, a CPA singapore, for 5 to 10 years. If possible, I'll go for a mid-career change to become a POA teacher in secondary school. If possible, I would want to go back to teach in TMS. :P
I said, If Possible.
Which means if not possible, I 'll just stay and continue to be an auditor or an accountant for the rest of my life.
So no matter what I'll have to hang on and clear my A levels.
What a drag...
3 months ago I'm struggling with O'levels and now, ahead of me is A levels. Will this ever come to an end?
Till then
Cheers
Jean
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Emotional and Sentimental Much?
Yes, I'm a very Emotional and Sentimental person.
In fact for the next few entries I'll try to be more Emotional and Sentimental than before.
Till then
Cheers
Jean
In fact for the next few entries I'll try to be more Emotional and Sentimental than before.
Till then
Cheers
Jean
Finger and Ring/ TMS and Me
I've got a ring.
I bought it four to five years ago when my family and I went for a holiday trip in Hong Kong. Hmmm... come to think of it, Hong Kong is a nice place, and I've been longing to go there again ever since then :P. Err... ok back to point...
Hong Kong has many shopping malls, that sells many wonderful articles of luxury. I didn't intend to buy that ring at first, however, that night, while we are visiting the mall, my companions simply couldn't resist their temptations and ended up buying a whole loads of stuff. Due to peer pressure, I simply can't lose out to them, I decided to buy something for myself. In other words, I'm just buying for the sake of buying. :P
I spotted a nearby shop that sells small accessories. Without having to consider much, I quickly marched in to the shop, and "grabbed" what fancies my eyes at that point in time.
Its that ring in which had caught my eye. Its pretty common ring. Nothing unique about it. It just happened to catch my attention at that particular moment. I bought it for S$2. Ever since, I've been wearing it on my Ring finger everyday and everynight.
Since I'm an impulsive consumer, I didn't really try out for the size and such. So after I bought it, I realised that, that ring could only fit in perfectly on my left Ring finger. :P
I've been wearing that piece of metal on my ring finger for a whole four/five years now. Unfortunately, my school didn't really allow such accessories to be found in student's possessions so I have to take it out during school hours.
However, like I've mentioned earlier, that old piece of metal had been there with me for four to five years, my Ring finger had already gotten used to a ring binded around it. And with the presence of the ring, it had instill a sense of security in me and at the same time in my Ring finger. Now I'm asked to remove the ring, myself and the Ring finger doesn't seem to agree, and always, the Ring finger and I felt that something is missing, and that sense of security is no longer there anymore. :(
Frankly speaking, I know, me and my Ring finger should quickly adapt to our changes and quickly get used to the life without the ring's companionship. We should move on with life, and understand that the ring is still with us, it will not leave us for another finger/owner, and we have to accept also to understand that we can only wear it occasionally.
I'm sure both of us, me and my Ring finger could let it go and seriously move on. And someday, I know could wear it full time again! Its just a temporary parting!
The above mentioned were true, however It had dawned upon me that the same situation applies to me and TMS. Taking the ring as TMS and my Ring finger as myself. I finally understood that I have to let TMS go. I have to accept my life without TMS.
Four to five years ago, I was posted to Temasek Secondary School after my PSLE. Seriously speaking, I felt nothing towards TMS at that point in time. I just go into the school for the sake of going in. But as time passes, throughout these four to five years, I've met many wonderful teachers and friends and I was simply amazed by what TMS had given me(if I'm a more 'enthu' person, TMS would give me even more). I grew a sense of belonging and affection towards the school. Its a feeling that I've never tasted in my whole entire life, and I'm pretty glad that I've felt it for TMS.
This week was a tough week for me emotionally. I've been trying to adjust myself to adapt to the sudden changes around me, and many of the times, I couldn't help it but to compare my new school with TMS. That makes my life really hard.
Mum's commented that I was childish, her comment hit me real hard the my head, and today, I think I've woke up. TMS won't be there for me forever, and of course at the same time, TMS won't leave me, its always there, in regardless at Upper East Coast Road or in my heart. I could still visit it occasionally when I miss it. And in the future, when I really become a sec sch teacher, I may even teach there full time! Its just a temporary parting between me and Temasek Secondary School! Besides, absence makes the hearts grow fonder!
I think I'm awake.
I think I'm starting to accept the changes surrounding me.
Next week I'm going back to TMS for the last time, until my SGC and O' level cert is ready.
Till then
Cheers
Jean
I bought it four to five years ago when my family and I went for a holiday trip in Hong Kong. Hmmm... come to think of it, Hong Kong is a nice place, and I've been longing to go there again ever since then :P. Err... ok back to point...
Hong Kong has many shopping malls, that sells many wonderful articles of luxury. I didn't intend to buy that ring at first, however, that night, while we are visiting the mall, my companions simply couldn't resist their temptations and ended up buying a whole loads of stuff. Due to peer pressure, I simply can't lose out to them, I decided to buy something for myself. In other words, I'm just buying for the sake of buying. :P
I spotted a nearby shop that sells small accessories. Without having to consider much, I quickly marched in to the shop, and "grabbed" what fancies my eyes at that point in time.
Its that ring in which had caught my eye. Its pretty common ring. Nothing unique about it. It just happened to catch my attention at that particular moment. I bought it for S$2. Ever since, I've been wearing it on my Ring finger everyday and everynight.
Since I'm an impulsive consumer, I didn't really try out for the size and such. So after I bought it, I realised that, that ring could only fit in perfectly on my left Ring finger. :P
I've been wearing that piece of metal on my ring finger for a whole four/five years now. Unfortunately, my school didn't really allow such accessories to be found in student's possessions so I have to take it out during school hours.
However, like I've mentioned earlier, that old piece of metal had been there with me for four to five years, my Ring finger had already gotten used to a ring binded around it. And with the presence of the ring, it had instill a sense of security in me and at the same time in my Ring finger. Now I'm asked to remove the ring, myself and the Ring finger doesn't seem to agree, and always, the Ring finger and I felt that something is missing, and that sense of security is no longer there anymore. :(
Frankly speaking, I know, me and my Ring finger should quickly adapt to our changes and quickly get used to the life without the ring's companionship. We should move on with life, and understand that the ring is still with us, it will not leave us for another finger/owner, and we have to accept also to understand that we can only wear it occasionally.
I'm sure both of us, me and my Ring finger could let it go and seriously move on. And someday, I know could wear it full time again! Its just a temporary parting!
The above mentioned were true, however It had dawned upon me that the same situation applies to me and TMS. Taking the ring as TMS and my Ring finger as myself. I finally understood that I have to let TMS go. I have to accept my life without TMS.
Four to five years ago, I was posted to Temasek Secondary School after my PSLE. Seriously speaking, I felt nothing towards TMS at that point in time. I just go into the school for the sake of going in. But as time passes, throughout these four to five years, I've met many wonderful teachers and friends and I was simply amazed by what TMS had given me(if I'm a more 'enthu' person, TMS would give me even more). I grew a sense of belonging and affection towards the school. Its a feeling that I've never tasted in my whole entire life, and I'm pretty glad that I've felt it for TMS.
This week was a tough week for me emotionally. I've been trying to adjust myself to adapt to the sudden changes around me, and many of the times, I couldn't help it but to compare my new school with TMS. That makes my life really hard.
Mum's commented that I was childish, her comment hit me real hard the my head, and today, I think I've woke up. TMS won't be there for me forever, and of course at the same time, TMS won't leave me, its always there, in regardless at Upper East Coast Road or in my heart. I could still visit it occasionally when I miss it. And in the future, when I really become a sec sch teacher, I may even teach there full time! Its just a temporary parting between me and Temasek Secondary School! Besides, absence makes the hearts grow fonder!
I think I'm awake.
I think I'm starting to accept the changes surrounding me.
Next week I'm going back to TMS for the last time, until my SGC and O' level cert is ready.
Till then
Cheers
Jean
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
DOWN.
2nd day of school.
Yes, I felt extremely down for these few days.
The reason doesn't lies with my new school, my new school was fantastic!
I was the problem.
I was extremely "TMS-SICK". I miss TMS so badly that sometimes I really have the urge to go right back in the middle of those boring lectures.
When Net and I was discussing about things used to happen in TMS, I get really emotional and many of the times, I have the urge to break down.
I missed my teachers' naggings, I somehow yearned for my principals' boring speeches, I missed the school's study area outside AVT where I spent most of my time studying for Os, I missed my classrooms, I missed the physics and chemistry labs that I used to screw up so many of my science experiments, I missed TMS' Mass CIP events, I missed the school's grand foyer and last but not least, TMS' school hall, where it had provided me with a stage and gave me my first performing exprience....
I'm sick.
I know I really should adapt to the changes happening around me but...
Oh nevermind. :(
Jean
Yes, I felt extremely down for these few days.
The reason doesn't lies with my new school, my new school was fantastic!
I was the problem.
I was extremely "TMS-SICK". I miss TMS so badly that sometimes I really have the urge to go right back in the middle of those boring lectures.
When Net and I was discussing about things used to happen in TMS, I get really emotional and many of the times, I have the urge to break down.
I missed my teachers' naggings, I somehow yearned for my principals' boring speeches, I missed the school's study area outside AVT where I spent most of my time studying for Os, I missed my classrooms, I missed the physics and chemistry labs that I used to screw up so many of my science experiments, I missed TMS' Mass CIP events, I missed the school's grand foyer and last but not least, TMS' school hall, where it had provided me with a stage and gave me my first performing exprience....
I'm sick.
I know I really should adapt to the changes happening around me but...
Oh nevermind. :(
Jean
Sunday, February 1, 2009
31 January 2009
[Yes, I know, its a dumb title. So last season and outdated. So please make do with it larh. :)]
Had lunch with Miss Soh, Munirah and Ruo Ning today. Although I just sits there and listen and I didn't do a lot of talking, I'm still pretty much happy catching up with them. :)
I've made up my mind. I want to be a permanent secondary school P.O.A/S.S teacher in TMS when I grow up.Ruo Ning and I had decided to be relief teachers in TMS after our A levels. So may be 2 years later, I'll be my teachers' colleague! :P
After the lunch, I went to my Aunt's place at Bishan for a dinner gathering. I've never been to her place alone before, so its quite a challenging task.
I got lost.
Yes go ahead and laugh. I got lost. Mainly was because, I turn right when my aunt told me to turn left. And when I'm suppose to turn right, I went left.
Well, in the end, I managed to find my way to her house. :P
When I reached, my aunt asked me if I had a hard time finding her house. In order save myself from explaining, I said no. :P
However, frankly speaking, I really shouldn't have a hard time finding my way to her house. Her house is actually pretty near the MRT station! It just that I've got serious direction problem so I went the wrong way and I got lost. :P (Come to think of it, before I set off to Bishan, Miss Soh asked me if I know my way or not. I've even told her that Singapore is not very big, I couldn't possibly lost my way. :P)
I made a fictional journal. I gave it away as a present. I very happy with what I've produced in a mere week, unfortunately, I've forgotten to keep one for myself. Sad.
Again, a sense of emptiness filled me up from top to toe after the lunch, while on my way to Bishan. I don't know why. I'll have to admit, I don't have the mood to have fun during the gathering.
I lost while playing the annual CNY Black-Jack game. (Its an annual thing, normally I don't gamble.) Everyone had striked at least 5 times of BJ combinations, while I only manage to strike once.
I'm not very lucky this year. Hopes next year would be better.
Sickly Lethargic
Jean
Had lunch with Miss Soh, Munirah and Ruo Ning today. Although I just sits there and listen and I didn't do a lot of talking, I'm still pretty much happy catching up with them. :)
I've made up my mind. I want to be a permanent secondary school P.O.A/S.S teacher in TMS when I grow up.Ruo Ning and I had decided to be relief teachers in TMS after our A levels. So may be 2 years later, I'll be my teachers' colleague! :P
After the lunch, I went to my Aunt's place at Bishan for a dinner gathering. I've never been to her place alone before, so its quite a challenging task.
I got lost.
Yes go ahead and laugh. I got lost. Mainly was because, I turn right when my aunt told me to turn left. And when I'm suppose to turn right, I went left.
Well, in the end, I managed to find my way to her house. :P
When I reached, my aunt asked me if I had a hard time finding her house. In order save myself from explaining, I said no. :P
However, frankly speaking, I really shouldn't have a hard time finding my way to her house. Her house is actually pretty near the MRT station! It just that I've got serious direction problem so I went the wrong way and I got lost. :P (Come to think of it, before I set off to Bishan, Miss Soh asked me if I know my way or not. I've even told her that Singapore is not very big, I couldn't possibly lost my way. :P)
I made a fictional journal. I gave it away as a present. I very happy with what I've produced in a mere week, unfortunately, I've forgotten to keep one for myself. Sad.
Again, a sense of emptiness filled me up from top to toe after the lunch, while on my way to Bishan. I don't know why. I'll have to admit, I don't have the mood to have fun during the gathering.
I lost while playing the annual CNY Black-Jack game. (Its an annual thing, normally I don't gamble.) Everyone had striked at least 5 times of BJ combinations, while I only manage to strike once.
I'm not very lucky this year. Hopes next year would be better.
Sickly Lethargic
Jean
Friday, January 30, 2009
只要肯努力，像我这样的人也会成功
之前，我迟迟没有把我对这次O水准会考最深的感触给写出来的原因是因为我一直在等待今天。
今天，我终于可以把我心中的那块大石放下。
今天，我终于可以很高兴的说O水准，总算告一段落了。
我很欣慰，历史并没有重演。我很欣慰，我的努力总算没有白费。
好多人都跟我说，13分都不算很好，不明白为什么我会这么开心。
我通常只对他们笑了笑就走开了。
他们不了解我的故事，他们不懂我背后的历史，他们不明白我之前所经历过的有多么艰难。
我曾经是个小六会考成绩只拿到190的学生。优越的成绩，从小到大永远没有我的份。比起身边的表姐妹们，我的学术永远是最烂的。我那时很讨厌参加家庭聚会。因为我的亲戚一有机会，就会在一旁冷嘲热讽。所以别说好成绩，就算是平平的成绩，也是我梦寐以求的。
感谢有一位老师对我不离不弃因为从来没有人相信我会做得到，就连妈妈也说我得13分，进了Tampines Junior College是个奇迹。
虽然13分还是比不过我表姐的7分。但我很满足，很开心了。
不是想要炫耀我的故事，我的成就（基本上我也没有什么成就可言）。
在这里我有一句话要对两个看不起我的人说∶
“谁说，有些人一直努力都不会成功？虽然现在我说不上什么成功，但总有一天我会证明给你们看，不只有那些优异的人会成功，只要肯努力，像我这样的人也会成功！"
Jean
今天，我终于可以把我心中的那块大石放下。
今天，我终于可以很高兴的说O水准，总算告一段落了。
我很欣慰，历史并没有重演。我很欣慰，我的努力总算没有白费。
好多人都跟我说，13分都不算很好，不明白为什么我会这么开心。
我通常只对他们笑了笑就走开了。
他们不了解我的故事，他们不懂我背后的历史，他们不明白我之前所经历过的有多么艰难。
我曾经是个小六会考成绩只拿到190的学生。优越的成绩，从小到大永远没有我的份。比起身边的表姐妹们，我的学术永远是最烂的。我那时很讨厌参加家庭聚会。因为我的亲戚一有机会，就会在一旁冷嘲热讽。所以别说好成绩，就算是平平的成绩，也是我梦寐以求的。
感谢有一位老师对我不离不弃因为从来没有人相信我会做得到，就连妈妈也说我得13分，进了Tampines Junior College是个奇迹。
虽然13分还是比不过我表姐的7分。但我很满足，很开心了。
不是想要炫耀我的故事，我的成就（基本上我也没有什么成就可言）。
在这里我有一句话要对两个看不起我的人说∶
“谁说，有些人一直努力都不会成功？虽然现在我说不上什么成功，但总有一天我会证明给你们看，不只有那些优异的人会成功，只要肯努力，像我这样的人也会成功！"
Jean
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
面具
他们都有一幅面具。
他们无时无刻的都戴着它。
他们很厉害因为，
他们可以用面具虚伪待人。
他们可以躲在面具后面不断伤人。
他们可以利用面具隐藏丑陋的自己。
因为他们的面具厚得让人不易看破。
我受伤，不是因为他们在我背后说的恶言恶语。
我受伤，是因为他们是我真心真意视他们如家人的亲戚。
我受伤，是因为他们欺骗了我。
我受伤，是因为他们践踏了我给他们的爱。
或许，我没有资格批评他们。我自己也何尝不是个戴着面具处事待人的人？只不过，我没他们厉害，我比他们笨点，蠢点。我不懂得怎样充分的利用我的面具。
Jean
他们无时无刻的都戴着它。
他们很厉害因为，
他们可以用面具虚伪待人。
他们可以躲在面具后面不断伤人。
他们可以利用面具隐藏丑陋的自己。
因为他们的面具厚得让人不易看破。
我受伤，不是因为他们在我背后说的恶言恶语。
我受伤，是因为他们是我真心真意视他们如家人的亲戚。
我受伤，是因为他们欺骗了我。
我受伤，是因为他们践踏了我给他们的爱。
或许，我没有资格批评他们。我自己也何尝不是个戴着面具处事待人的人？只不过，我没他们厉害，我比他们笨点，蠢点。我不懂得怎样充分的利用我的面具。
Jean