Failing the expectations people have of me.
Knowing that I've disappoint so many people.
It is definitely not the best morale booster I'm looking for.
(Well, at least when I was working hard for O levels, I had Miss Soh and Mdm Yeo around, to believe that I would do well.)
Now, I'm all alone to console and fend for myself.
Fighting alone. A lonely fight.
Though I've mentioned that emotionally, I've gone far to low - so low to the extent that I couldn't go any lower - I realised that I'm not progressing up either.
Felt ignored, neglected.
The only way to feel better is to laugh everything off.
Pretend to be nonchalant. Aloof. Indifferent.
Pretending that I don't care, I don't mind.
Who else can I blame besides myself?
I haven't been proving myself anyway.
Anxieties. Doubts.
How can I survive through this ordeal?
Or should I ask...
Am I able to survive through this ordeal?
Fighting alone. A lonely fight.
Jean
Though I've mentioned that emotionally, I've gone far to low - so low to the extent that I couldn't go any lower - I realised that I'm not progressing up either.
Felt ignored, neglected.
The only way to feel better is to laugh everything off.
Pretend to be nonchalant. Aloof. Indifferent.
Pretending that I don't care, I don't mind.
Who else can I blame besides myself?
I haven't been proving myself anyway.
Anxieties. Doubts.
How can I survive through this ordeal?
Or should I ask...
Am I able to survive through this ordeal?
Fighting alone. A lonely fight.
Jean