Maybe I need to see a psychiatrist.
I'm losing it.
I thought I understand myself very well, but I guess I'm quite mistaken.
I can no longer rationalize my actions and my thoughts.
I don't know why I've become so difficult, recalcitrant and resistant.
Clearly, its either I've lost my mind or someone/ something might have taken over me... - Which I think the latter would be utterly impossible, so it would most probably be the former.
庆幸的是，你知道你要什么。
但，我是不幸的。
犹如陷在流沙般的处境里。越挣扎，越陷越深，太深，深得令我窒息。
手里的枯藤也渐渐力不从心，快被我扯断了。
How does it feel to be trapped in a quicksand, and sinking fast?
Is it what I'm feeling now?
Struggles will only worsen the situation.
Jean