Jiang Nan Trip Part 2

Now comes the funny part of the trip.

1) [Oh... erm before I start with my recount, I would like to explain my behaviour.
*Ahem... and here is my explanation: Daddy used to bring me shopping when I was young, and whenever we saw a trolley, he would like to put me inside. In order to make me happy, he would borrow the bars between the wheels and skate on it, and same goes for the luggage trolleys used in airports.]

It all happened on 13 Dec 2008, 11+pm, S'pore Changi Airport Terminal 3, on my way to Boarding Hall. I was assigned with the responsibility of pushing the luggage trolley to the boarding hall. While pushing the trolley, I suddenly recalled how daddy used to skate me around with a trolley when I was little. Out of boredom, and the urge to again experience the perks of how daddy used to skate the trolley with me, I started skating on the trolley just like how daddy used to do it.

Unfortunately, I'm too heavy for the trolley to tolerate so...
SO... I... FELL!!! And the worst part was... I fell in front of the crowd. All my travelling companions burst out laughing of course.
The crowd? unlike my travelling companions were kind enough not to laugh. :D I thought I heard some gigglings behind but I'm sure I was hallucinating. :D

[OH! Don't worry, I'm not hurt. Haha, So kind of you to care. :D Thank You!!! What?... No?... You are more concerned of how I fell??? Oh! how could you?!?!]

2) *Ahem... so I suppose we could go on with the next incident. (>_<)[From now on every incident I'll be mentioning all had to do with toilets.]
I think this one, if I'm not wrong, happened in the hotel of YiWu. Its a sophisticated and classy hotel, even their public toilet were grand and sophisticated. Let alone a small door lock of a cubicle. Very sophisticated as well. Like I always say, I'm the simplest simpleton ever and complicated things aren't for me. This was what happened....
Before we set off to our next destination from the hotel, my female travelling companions and I wanted to visit the toilet, just in case nature called us in the middle of our long ride. So we went to the toilet. And OH WOW!!! the toilet sure is grand!!! EXCITEDLY, I went in to one of the cubicle. After I'm done, to my horror, I can't seem to unlock the door. I meddled with the lock, turning it left and right but it shows no sign of unlocking!!! Out of anxiety, I shouted for my travelling companions for help. "HELP!!! HELP!!! HELP!!! I CAN"T UNLOCK IT!!!! I"M STUCK!!!" Then my aunt quickly comforted me and gave me the instructions of how to unlock sophisticated door lock. Finally, I'm free. As I stepped out of the cubicle, I saw the other females CTC tour mates waiting. Instantly I knew they heard me shouting... Embarrassedly, I washed my hands and quickly ran out of the toilet. I heard soft gigglings behind, and I'm sure I'm not hallucinating.

3) This incident... hmmm... happened in a restaurant... unfortunately I really can't remember the exact place. Anyway thats not really important :D Well this one really scared the wits out of me. Here goes... Mummy, Junli and I went to the toilet to get ready for set off to another destination. We saw 3 available cubicles and we took one each. I pushed my way in to the cubicle and locked the door. After I'm done, I realised after I unlocked the lock, no matter how hard I push the door It won't barge! In other words, the door could not be opened. I meddled with the door for quite sometime and Mum being the first one out, impatiently asked if I'm done or not. Whilst she was asking, I was pushing the door with all my might to make it open...silently of course... I didn't want Mum to know I'm stuck in a cubicle again...Anxiously I replied my mum: "Ya soon!!!" But I'm still in the mist of pushing...Just when I was about to ask for help, I suddenly noticed that there was a sign "PULL" on the door. Great... just great....

4)This one would be the last incident as far as I could remember. I will add on to the list if I could remember more. :D Again, it got to do with toilet. We were at ShangHai's tallest building's 88th floor enjoying a 360 degree view of ShangHai. The guide gave us an hour for sight-seeing and after all the pictures taking, we realised we still have ample time for ice-cream. (Yes Yes I know we are nuts... Its extremely cold out there and we are eating ice-cream.) Anyway, we had ice-cream. Mummy being a baby, stained her shirt, jeans, jacket and my hand with chocolate ice-cream. She needed a toilet to clean up. And so, we went down, all the way from 88th floor to the 1st floor. I had a pair of sharp eyes, and saw the toilet sign immediately when the elevator's door opens. Quickly I dashed my way through the crowds with a mindset of directing Mum and company to the toilet as quickly as possible. Once I stepped into the toilet, I went to the basin to wash my hands. Suddenly I realised those females weren't with me. I was the only one in the toilet. I thought they might have lost me while following so I went out. As I stepped out of the toilet, I saw my tour group's most handsome guy and his family smiling at me. I'm a polite girl, so I smiled back, at the same time still looking for my mum and company at the toilet entrance. I find it strange that why that guy kept looking and smiling at me. My first instinct told me that he might be interested in me, so again, I smiled back at him. Suddenly as I turned my head, I saw the toilet sign.... I slowly walk to the sign to double check. And it states there... Male.

[Aftermath...
GOODNESS GRACIOUS!!! I quickly ran away of course!!! How embarrassing!!! The worst part is that cute guy saw it all!!!! HELP ME!!!!
[After that incident, somehow, I can't help but kept thinking of that guy... Oops...]]

Jean Ziying

Jiang Nan Trip Part 1

I'm back from my 8 days of Jiang-Nan Trip!!!
Haha what a coincidence! Darren was there too! Haha and now to briefly blog about my trip.

1st day 14 Dec 2008
Left S'pore at 0115am.
Reached ShangHai Pudong International Airport at 0635am.
We took the ShangHai Maglev Train from ShangHai Pudong International Airport to ShangHai Maglev Longyang Road Station. The train could travel 30km in 8min!!!
Best thing ever, there was a cute guy in my group!!!
Then we visited ShangHai's Madam Tussauds Wax Figure Musuem.
We had our lunch in ShangHai thats when I saw Darren and his tour group in the restaurant.
Next we are off to SuZhou in the afternoon.
When we reached SuZhou...
When we reached SuZhou...
...OK I can't remember what we did there... But thats not really important haha so lets go on.
Due to winter, daytime is shorter, night falls at 5pm!!!
After dinner, we went to shop! I love shopping! But the saddening thing is because its winter down there, all clothes on sale were meant for winter, so I can't buy. *Sniffs
Oh and during shopping, Mum lost her phone. She didn't realised until we reached our hotel. All of us were happy that, that old sickening phone in which Mum refuses to change all along had finally left us... Mum was quite depressed though.
Turn in at 2200pm.

2nd day 15 Dec 2008
Still in SuZhou, morning call at 0630am. Tiring.
We went to SuZhou's Silk Factory to buy silk stuff!!! We bought 4 Silk-made pillows, and 4 Silk-made blankets. In conclusion, we had spent a fortune on silk products. I saw Darren again at the Silk Factory, by that time, I started to suspect that he is visiting the same place as me. Such coincidence!
Next we went to XiTang to ride on river boats. The scenery were mesmerizing! After the boat ride we went for lunch.
Right after lunch we were off to YiWu.
According to the tour guide, YiWu is a perfect place for shopping spree-ing, unfortunately, Mum wasn't feeling so well, so I don't have any memories on the visit of YiWu, except accompanying mummy to visit YiWu's toilet to vomit. (-_-lll)

3rd day 16 Dec 2008
At YiWu. Morning Call 0630am. I'm dying!!!
We went shopping again. :D Mum felt better after half a day of vomit.... So she had the energy to shop. She bought herself a tea set and a digital photo frame. (PS: See see, when she is feeling better, she couldn't stop buying. :P)
Then we are off to HangZhou. My favourite city. We had our lunch there.
After lunch we were off to visit HangZhou's famous "Xi Hu" (West Lake) What a beautiful sight. Took photos here and then and we were off for dinner. :D After dinner we went for a musical named: "给我一天，还你千年" (Give me a day, I'll return you a Thousand Years) at Song Cheng (Song City) Its a fantastic musical! Everything felt real and the effect was facinating. With the use of laser lightings, they have created many magnificent stage effects. I love it! I strongly recommand people to watch it. :D

4th day 17 Dec 2008
Still at HangZhou. Morning call 0730am. Thank goodness.
We went to the Long Jing Tea Plantation. The weather was cold and I've no mood for photo takings, but mummy was so enthusiastic she insisted that WE must take as much photos as we can. I wonder where she gets all her energy from. Reluctantly and in due shivering cold, I posed for the photos. :( Haha.
Mum hasn't got over her fortune spending at the silk factory, so she kept reminding us that we mustn't spend a single cent at the Tea Plantation. However we lost to temptations, and bought many tea-made goody snacks.
After lunch at HangZhou, we left for NanJing. 4 hours ride on the couch has given me a backache. NanJing, a solemn city. The first place they brought us to was the NanJing Massacre Memorial Hall. I was surrounded by sadness and sombreness once I stepped into the Memorial Hall. Next we went for dinner. The food was salty, but it was still acceptable for me. Next we went shopping again! I bought myself a Doggy Pouch! Its damn cute!

5th day 18 Dec 2008
Anthea's Birthday. Due to oversea charges, I wasn't allowed to sms my aunt to wish her baby Happy Birthday. So here it is, my belated wishes for her. Happy Birthday Anthea!!
Morning call 0630am. Goodness Gracious! Still at NanJing.
We went to visit a river, unfortunately I can't remember the name of the Lake. I just know that its very cold there and I've no mood for photo taking. Mum again insisted that we must take some. Next stop we visited Chang Jiang. Again, its extremely cold, I really have no mood for sight seeing, however I manage to take notice of the bridge. This bridge proves that Chinese are capable of doing great things too.
After lunch, We are off to WuXi.
WuXi a beautiful place. We visited a film's shooting scene. The ancient buildings were beautiful. Somehow I think we arrived at WuXi late, so very soon, night falls. (at 5pm) And when night falls,it gets extremely cold. :( After that, we went for dinner.

6th day 19 Dec 2008
Morning call 0730am. Yay!
We went to Pearls farm. Mum and Net bought 2 pearls bracelet and a Pearl necklace. Next we visited another river named: "Li Hu" (Li Lake).I can't remember what happen. Soon after we visited a clay teapot making factory, Mum was so tempted, however, she realised we had spent too much money, so se managed to control herself.
We are off to our next stop, in which was our last stop, ShangHai.
First place we visited in ShangHai was their Aquarium. Something like Sentosa's Underwater World. There were many fanciful fishes and I'm mesmerized by their beauty. I got a thing for fishes you know. Haha.
After that we were off for dinner. Right after dinner, we went to watch an Acrobat show. It was very exciting.

7th day 20 Dec 2008
Morning call 0730am. Hooray!
We visited ShangHai's tallest building, and did some sight seeing at the 88th floor of the building, where we get to view ShangHai 360 degrees. I think I had fell in love with someone at in the building. (>_<)
Then after that, we went on to a Feng Shui place. Mum spent a fortune there. After the Feng Shui Place, we went to a foot reflexology place, Dad spent another fortune there. During dinner, I nagged at them for spending way too much. But I don't think they heeded my advice.

8th day 21 Dec 2008
Free and easy day. Morning call 0730am. Yeah!
Tiring day! We had walk miles and miles to kill the time. I hate midnight flights. Me, Net and Jun almost get lost in the MRT station. Frightening exprience. I felt empty all day long. He had left ShangHai very early in the morning. I know I won't get to see him again. I don't even know his name! Goodness me!
Night arrived, we set off to ShangHai Pudong International Airport.
Left ShangHai at 12am
Reached Singapore at 22 Dec 2008 0500am. Happy Birthday to me. :D

(Next post? Would most probably be about those funny things that had happened to me during the trip.)

Jean-Zinc

Allergic to cold weather???

The doc said my ailments were because of cold weather.

It may worsen during my trip to Shang Hai. Thats terrible...

Does that mean I'm allergic to cold weather??? Haha...

Those medicine are making drowsy...

I feeling like sleeping...

*Boo Hoo

Jean

Sick

I'm officially sick.

Running nose; Itchy throat; Slight dizzy spells; Nauseating(Motion Sickness); Fatigue.

It might be some kind of serious illness.... *Egad! *Gasp!

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...
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I'm seeing the doc tomorrow, hope everything is fine.

Jean

"Quit watching television, you're gonna fail your exams!"

"Quit watching television, you're gonna fail your exams!"

I kinda miss this sentence, and ever since O'level was over I've never heard of this sentence until now.

I used to loath this sentence to the core, and never ever expected that I will miss this sentence.

Now I am officially a couch potato, however, no one was there to nag at me to quit watching and hit the books.

A sense of emptiness is filling me.

I never thought I would say these but...

"How I wish to go back to school again...
How I wish I have holidays homework to do..."

Jean

Highlighted!!!

Wooz...

I highlighted my hair yesterday.

Golden brown

Muahahahahaha

Love it.

Jean

Exhausted

Its a good thing that dad has a Laptop.

Wooz... we have finally finish packing for the renovation.

We squeezed everything from the 3 rooms into the dining and living room.

Now I'm surrounded by mountains of books, toys, bags and computer accessories.

And I'm extremely exhausted right now.

Mum said even if I have piano tmr, I have to work. I am suppose to go to her office after our piano lesson.... :(

Now... I am very deprived of my sleep.

Jean

Moving

I'm moving house...

To granny's place...

Because of house renovation...

It seems that renovating has been an annual thing...

No PC for a month...

I don't think I can survive...

Anyway I will try my best to live...

Good news... I'm will start work on wed instead...

Mom wants to pack the house for renovation on mon and I have piano lesson on tues...

YAY!!!

Jean

BORED

I'm BORED TO DEATH!!!!

Guess the freedom after 'Os' ain't that wonderful afterall..... :(

I can't believe I'm saying this...

"Yay... I'm starting work next Monday... FOR FREE... woo yeah... 3 cheers... Hip Hip Hooray... Hip Hip Hooray... Hip Hip Hooray... (PS: Spoke with UNENTHUSIASM)"

YAY???

Jean

Ambivalence

我认错了。

性格“太直”，头脑太简单并不是件好事。
因为我这愚蠢的个性，我被好多人蒙骗，被好多人伤害。

但...

我很不愿意逼自己把头脑变得不简单。我还不想这么快走进虚伪，心机重的现实世界。

我...很矛盾。

I'm very disheartened by the fact that some of my family members have to put on a mask while facing one another. Treating each other hypocritically.
Only I, the dumb one, the simpleton, foolishly thought that their feelings, their words and their emotions were true.
My willingness to believe them turns out to be an action of utter foolery.
They had me completely fooled.

However it was my own wishful thinking that family members should be truthful to each other. I could understand why they have to put up a false appearence towards everyone. 'False appearence-ing' was the basic tactic to prevent them from getting hurt by reality. Moreover they are my family, how can I not try to pardon them?

I'm feeling rather ambivalence now...

Nevertheless...

... ... ... ... ... ...

Though, they can't be true, even to their own family members, I hope that they would at least be true to themselves.

Jean

Dumb-est person ever

I think I'm the dumb-est person on earth!

Mum just offered me to work for her in her office for 20 dollars per day as a book keeper, and I have to start work next monday. However because of my dumb principles, I actually offered myself to work for her for FREE. I can't be anymore dumb-er than this. Work for free?! What has gotten into me?!

The most regretful part was, although my principles were the ones telling me not to become a money-face, I never really thought through properly before I answer mom. 说话没有经过大脑。:(

....*sniff....

I will become money faced sooner or later, so why don't I allow myself to become one now?

Great, work from 9 to 5... no money....

Jean

WOOZ!!! LOVE YESTERDAY = LAST DAY of Os

Never thought this day would come!

Really had a fun time with Net and Jun.

Gotta enjoy this holiday!!

WOO YEAH!

Jean

OLevel 考试倒数第二天

惰性又再次战胜了我，上个礼拜应考的心情完全没有记载下来。即使现在把上个星期应考的心情补上，我也觉得没意思。所以我决定就从今天开始继续记载我的应考心情。

Olevel 倒数第二天
Literature

反常的镇定，使我越来越怀疑自己是否真的做足了充分的准备。再一次的，我的镇定有被扰乱的思绪给乱了阵脚。临考的前一分钟，我才稍微的说服自己别太紧张。

今天的考试还算顺利。Olevel还真是会拖，现在我的斗志几乎快耗尽了。下个礼拜二过后，我真的可以名正言顺的大玩一场了！

成绩会怎样？就留到明年再烦吧！

Jean

O'level 第二天和第三天

21 Oct 2008
第二天
English

我发现我真是不积极啊！呵呵！说好一考完就必须纪录当天此刻的心情，却把记载的工作一直推到今天。

由于英文考试是在下午，我便必须自己乘坐巴士到考场。在巴士里，我发现我是最不用功的一个。我周遭的考生们都在巴士里埋头苦读，而我却呆呆的在看着他们读。我的心里不禁感到莫名的紧张。心里在想：“如果今天考的不好，明年拿成绩的时候一定会哭死。怎么办？”想着想着，心里越来越紧张。本来已经很没自信了，现在更没有信心了。当心里已经到了有点惶恐的地步时，我忽然醒悟，提醒自己，千万不可乱了阵脚， 在一旁不停的Chant，跟自己洗脑，说自己是A1的料。

我又是冷静的进入考场。临考前，我又对自己Chant了一遍∶“陈秭莹，你是A1的料，你是A1的料...” 考试很顺利，不过成绩好不好，又是另外一回事了。算了，现在担心也没用，到时，拿成绩的时候再烦恼吧。希望船到桥头自然直。

23 Oct 2008
第三天
E Math Paper 1

在准备的前一晚，我简直快崩溃了。心里有块大石压在心里很难过。我对E Math一直都很有信心的，但前一晚突然发现，自己好像还有很多东西不懂，越做考题，越有压力。之后我决定不要再做考题了，我要休息。以免做的越多压力越大。

一种很绷紧的感觉一直在我身边绕来绕去，进了考场也不放过我。烦死了。之后我决定用‘Chanting疗法’来恢复信心。又是那句:“我是A1的料 我是A1的料...”

还好，我并没有辜负我的一番苦心，我的‘Chanting疗法’还真管用。:D。
希望会有好成绩。

Jean

考O'Level的第一天

I know I shouldn't blog at this point in time, but I really wanted to record the feelings that I'd went through during O'Level. :D

20 Oct 2008
O'Level的第一天。
Chemistry

今天我感觉很不一样。我对我的态度感到很惊讶。从来没有这么信心满满的进入考场。尤其惊奇的是我今天的对手是我一直很束手无策的Chemistry，我也能如此信心十足，真的是奇迹。

这个感觉令我很不安。我害怕我过于自信看见考卷时脑子会一片空白。毕竟，这种‘临场空白’的经验也不是没有发生过。虽然信心饱满，我仍然很紧张。

还好事情没有我预料的坏。考卷并不会很难，还是‘Do-able’ 的。

我自认我这次的准备可算是很充分的，书也可以说是被我翻烂了。很后悔前几年的考试没有这么用心读。因为信心满满的参加考试的感觉很‘爽’。

但今天的Chemistry是Science Paper的5分之1。说可能会拿一个‘A’还言之过早。尤其我的Practical并不是很理想，所以距离‘A’的路还很远。我真的不敢保证。

明天是English，心里有点余悸。毕竟英文是最重要的一科，决不能允许自己有半点失误。但是一说到English，我是始终有点力不从心。也只能好好加油了！

Jean

Something

Faith commented that my blog seems to be dead.

So I think I should blog about something.

So heres goes... :D

SOMETHING.
...
...
...

Ha ha. :D
So I suppose my blog isn't dead anymore :)

Jean

3 October 2008

I was asked to write a reflection after the farewell assembly for the school web. I might as well post it on my blog too. :D

Today's farewell ceremony was definitely tears-jerking. When I saw the slides, my nose turned sour immediately, and tears started to fall, however it wasn't a heavy rain.

Frankly speaking, I don't have a good memory. I can't even remember what I had for my dinner yesterday! However, when I was asked to recall the days I had with Temasek, many things came up to my mind. Temasek had left such an impression on me that every single memory I had with the school seemed to have carved in deeply into my head.

It has dawned on me that I had sung my school song for the last time, I had made my last Temasek cheer, and I had spent my last moment with my classmates, schoolmates and of course, with my teachers.

The encouragement from the teachers had spurred me on. They had gave me the drive to study hard and made me more determined to achieve good results for my upcoming O' levels. Many of my friends commented that they can't bear to leave the school and I felt the same, however I know we had to leave eventually, and it is a fact that we cannot change.

Nevertheless, Temasek is my school and it will always be, because Once a Temasekian, always a Temasekian.

Oh shucks.... Now my nose is sour again....

(((Sniffing)))
Jean

Counting down

8 more weeks to the end of my suffering!!!

How wonderful :D

Jean

W-A-S-A-B-I

Those green little thing are so tempting. They look so round, cute and tiny. I feel like putting them into my mouth and give them a little tender bite...

*CRUNCH!!!

WAAAAAAAA!!!!

WASABI PEAS!!!

SPICY!!!!

I CAN"T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!

GIVE ME WATER!!!!

(((Swollen red mouth)))
Jean

想东想西

我头脑有点简单，往往只会从一个角度去看待每件事情。 所以我的老妈常说我“没有办法‘继承’她的头脑，脑筋转得不够快。反而跟老爸一样‘直’的要死”。但我觉得，做一个很‘直’的人并没有什么问题。我倒觉得‘直’可以让我很明确的分清对错，对我来说，黑与白之间永远没有灰色地带。

最近思绪又开始乱了，有事没事又在那里想东想西。脑子里的人生大道理比老爸还多，但很快的，全都会随着风和云一起飘走，一个都留不住。使我认为我老在浪费时间想些有的没的。

会考渐渐逼近，难免会因为以往的经历而感到有所恐惧。害怕明年又要再一次失意，害怕明年新年又要低着头面对亲友，害怕知道是我自己亲手毁了自己的前途，害怕5年前的历史又要重演。那么多害怕，那么多恐惧，有时想到这里，我都快被压力压得喘不过气。为了减压，我就拿Sudoku来玩，却又被看成无心读书。想解释也不知从何说起，唯一能做的也就只有无奈的笑着。

开始觉得上学是在浪费时间，我宁愿自己在家里读。

曾经理智气壮的辩解，认为我才是对的，但闹翻后再来看看，再反省，发现其实我才是坏人，我才是那个令我讨厌的坏人。我没有顾及别人的感受，我眼里只有我，我是自私的，我才是坏人。可我不会后悔我做的决定，因为我想像老妈一样潇洒，从不为自己的决定而感到后悔。所以我有我的原则，我就必须坚守着，若我违背了我的原则而后悔，我就是在伤害自己。但愿毕业后能够振作，重新开始。:P

5年的长跑即将结束。下个月就是会考了。感谢Miss Soh昨天再一次的把年头表扬那些会考取得好成绩的Power Point播出来，提醒了我今年我一开始就定下的目标∶我要我的名字出现在明年表扬好成绩时的Power Point里。我现在充满了斗志，现在是长跑的最后一圈了，我必须全力以赴!

(((Go Go Go!!!)))

Jean

Eyes and Mouth

Me and my foul mouth. I swear I won't blabber any nonsense ever again.

I've got the ultimate..... SORE EYES!!!

WHY ME????

I used to say I won't get it, but now.... Me and my foul mouth. I shall refrain from talking ever again.

Oh... by the way. I'VE PASSED MY ENGLISH!!!! (According to my calculations) YAY!!!

(((Feeling terrible)))

Jean

Interest or not

I think its a trend of thought going around in this family. This big family that doesn't consist solely the four and four of us only, but the whole group of relatives that I love to spend my time with.

Even though I consider that we are one big family, we are break-up into five individual groups of four, scattered around in many different parts of Singapore. Therefore I think that "家家有本难念的经" still applies to us.

After reading my cousin's blog, I realised that my mum and most of her siblings shared the same kind of thought. They would just keep preaching to their kids: "Don't just pursue anything for mere interest, it won't get you far, it won't give you a good life in the future, it won't.... it won't.... it won't...." I was wondering, why stop a child from doing something they like? Why condemn a child's right from pursuing their interest?

Of course I won't try to be sarcastic about it, however, part of me agrees and disagrees with this sentence to a certain extent. (I hope that my tone ain't sound like I'm doing SS here :D)

I disagree because I think a child, no... not only a child, EVERYONE has the right to pursue their career based on interest. It has yet to be proven that someone will not lead a good life just because they pursue a career based on their interest.

As matter of fact, I think people who applied for a job for the purpose of life jacket, without having that passion for the particular job would thus lead to unhappiness while working. If not then why would statistic show that many people dislike their jobs? And why would statistic show that many people have no passion for their job?

If we look deeper into the problem, it might also lead to economic growth of the country. Which I'm NOT going into it, if I do, I'm really on the verge of writing a Social Studies report in which I don't wanna. Thus, interest is important too.

On the other hand, I agrees because all parents have been through hardships. And they don't want their children to follow their footsteps and suffer.

To them, they think they know what is best for the kid. To them, passion and interest are something that could be developed over the time. What's most important is to ensure the child to have a stable job when they proceed into the society. Thus they feel that they need to equip the child with every single certificate that they feel that the child deserve to have by sending them to attend various courses and classes, pushing the child to achieve something above their limit. Their very wish was to see their child being successful in the future.

With this I don't deny that parents had put in alot of effort in ensuring the child to lead a good life in the future.

Well, after my O level this year, I will be sitting at the driver's seat, facing and waiting at the crossroad for the traffic light to turn green, at the mean time choosing and deciding my next route of where I want to go. To the place where the sign states: Interest and Passion or to the place where the sign that wrote: Follow your parents.







Jean

Wall-E

Watched Wall-E yesterday!!! I like M-O and Eve!!! I love the way M-O's way of detecting and classifying Wall-E as "Foreign Contaminant" and his determination to clean Wall-E up. And EVE... no particular reason why, her appearance just appeals to me very much. :D

Initially, Net and I decided to watch "Journey To The Centre Of The Earth". I know its kind of late but due to prelims, I have no choice but to watch it now. Unfortunately the cinema did not schedule the movie in favour of our time, so Net told daddy that we will be watching Wall-E. He agrees readily and so off we went for the movie.

After we bought the ticket and snacks, while we were ready to go in, daddy saw the poster of Wall-E on the wall, he exclaimed. "You mean the robot thing is Wall-E?"
Net replied "Ya, if not what do you think it is?"
Dad said:"I thought the name of the movie Journey to the centre of the earth was Wall-E!!! I didn't expect it to be a robot show!!! How can you all trick me in to this???"

LOL

Anyway, I think he enjoyed the movie. Thats why I always say, Disney and Pixar's movies never fails to disappoint me. :P

(((W-A-L-L-E)))
Jean

游子吟

A classic chinese poem by 孟郊.
My mother used to recite this everynight to make me sleep when I was young.

游子吟
孟郊

慈母手中线
游子身上衣
临行密密缝
意恐迟迟归
谁言寸草心
报得三春晖

This poem triggers many memories I had with my late grandmother. Well I guess it will triggers the memories I had with my late great grandmother too.

Afterall, its about mother's love isn't it?

(((Sentimental)))
Jean

Unpredictable

What a tough week. I never thought I need to write this entry. I thought I never have to.

For the past 6 days, I found myself in a difficult situation, as if I was practicing a high wire acrobat performance, struggling to balance myself emotionally and of course the stress of facing my prelims.

Someone left us in the family. It mades me think that life is very unpredictable. One moment shes there smiling happily at us and now shes not with us anymore. She left us peacefully, so I think its not respectful to feel sad. I think we shouldn't cry due to sadness, I bet she wouldn't want us to feel sad and cry either.

I remained solemn throughout the entire 5 days funeral ceremony. I didn't cry, even though I had the strong urge to do so.

Take a break from the sorrowness. I didn't know that I have such a big family that consist of so many relatives. It had been years since I last saw them. Guilty as charge, I felt that I did not spend enough time with them.

Now that she had left us, the link that connect me and them seemed to have broken. I wonder when will I see them again?

Then again, goodbye... great grandmother. You will always be in my heart.

Jean

Life

Life could be very vulnerable...

Just a thought.

Jean

白粥，加酱青，配一盘清炒青菜，腌制菜心和午餐肉。

白粥，加酱青，配一盘清炒青菜，腌制菜心和午餐肉。

很淡的菜肴，却让我吃得回味无穷。

我常说一句话∶ “在我心里有一顿饭，不管吃多少遍都不厌倦。不是什么大鱼大肉或满汉全席，而是外婆的一碗白粥，加酱青，配一盘清炒青菜，腌制菜心和午餐肉。清清淡淡却百吃不厌。”

很久没这样吃了，非常怀念这样的吃法。即使吃得到，也不是外婆煮出来的那种味道。

我还记得，以前，每逢星期六下午，我们一家都会到外婆家看外公外婆。外婆也就会煮午餐给我们吃。她常煮的午餐也就是我所谓的白粥，加酱青，配一盘清炒青菜，腌制菜心和午餐肉。

但现在吃不到了...
我很怀念她常煮的那顿午餐...

(((Sentimental)))
Jean

Gaia

Just bought a new nail polisher block. Super-duper fascinated with the effect it appeared to have on my nails after buffering. Can't stop but to stare at my nails all day.

Back to the main point. Well my annual Classic Disney Motion Pictures-Fever came back for me again. Only a little later than usual, but thats okay. As long as this old friend of mine didn't forget to pay me a visit, I'm fine with it. Recently, I'm addicted to a song from the Disney's Pocahontas, Colours of The Wind. A very fine song indeed. It sent me thinking about how badly human had treated earth, and made me realised everything on this earth has a life, in regardless if they are a living thing or not.

Heres the lyrics of the song. Its very meaningful, it makes me cry you know....

Colours of the Wind
You think I'm an ignorant savage,
and you've been so many places I guess it must be so,
but still I can not see if the savage one is me,
How can there be so much that you don't know, you don't know...

You think you own whatever land you land on,
the earth is just a dead thing you can claim,
But I know every rock and trees and creatures,
Has a life, has a spirit, has a name.

You think the only people who are people,
Are the people who look and think like you,
But if you walk the footsteps of a stranger,
You learn things you never knew you never knew.

Have you ever heard the wolf cry to the blue corn moon?
or ask the grinning bobcat why he grinned?
Can you sing with all the voices of the mountains?
Can you paint with all the colours of the wind?
Can you paint with all the colours of the wind?

Come run the hidden pinetrails of the forest,
Come taste the sun-sweet berries of the earth,
Come roll in all the riches all around you,
And for once never wonder what they're worth.

The rainstorm and the rivers are my brothers,
And the heron and the otter are my friends,
And we are all connected to each other,
In a circle in a hoop that never ends.

How high does the sycamore grow?
If you cut it down, then you'll never know.

And you'll never hear the wolf cry to the blue corn moon?
For whether we are white or copper-skinned?
We need to sing with all the voices of the mountains,
Need to paint with all the colours of the wind,
You can own the Earth and still,
all you'll own is earth until
You can paint with all the colours of the wind.
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It makes a whole lot of sense actually, and they are right. I mean take this line for example: "how high does the sycamore grow? If you cut it down, then you will never know."

Logical isn't it?
Gaia is suffering now, should we not spare a thought fo her?

(((Being environmental conscious)))
Jean

The Last of Everything

"You must cherish the fact that your teachers still bother to scold you for not handing in your homework. When you proceed with secondary school life, your teacher may not even care if you hand up your homework or not."

This was the one and only sentence that my primary 6 subject teachers never fail to repeat when we are leaving the school and going on with secondary school life. At that time, I am definitely unhappy about it. It makes me very reluctant to leave school.

But now, I would hereby like to prove them wrong. My secondary school teachers still bother to scold us for not handing in our homework. In the other words, they still care for us.

Well even though the above sentence contains fallacies, now that I'm preparing to leave my secondary school and proceed with the post secondary school life. I am still hearing it. Not from my teachers (some of them did... I guess, I remember hearing them saying this....) but my friends who had already graduated and my parents.

This time, it does no impact on me..... Not!!! I'm still very upset about it... And I'm reluctant to leave again.

Last friday was the school's annual Cross Country cum National Day Celebration. I'm not the sporty-type of person and I classified myself as the 'Care Less and Lazy' type. So the word Cross-Country spoils my mood of enjoying and celebrating National day. I am so reluctant to go. But just two days before the event, something hit me real hard on the head. I told myself: "I must be nuts to miss this Cross-Country and National Day celebration! I may not have the chance to attend it again!!!"

Thus I went. Despite several excuses gave from my my lazy devilious self, still, I dragged my feet to East Coast Park and spend my morning with the school. Not for health concerns, that I want to wake up early and exercise, but for my school, because I want to spend my last of every school event with my teachers, my friends and my school. As I know, I might not have the chance to enjoy them... at the very least, not with Temasek Scondary School again.

Next would be the last annual Teacher's Day celebration for me. I would like to make it fruitful and enjoyable for all my teachers. And hopefully, on that day, it will earn a respectful, memorable, fun and honorary page in my memory album.

The Last of Everything.

(((Sentimental)))
Jean

100th

The 100th post!!! Not bad, not bad at all!!! For a 3 minute person like me, could keep a blog till now can be considered as a miracle!!!

First thing first. Well, now I can officially and finally add a 'Full-Stop' behind the phrase 'Class T-shirts'. I'm extremely happy with it.

Secondly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE, SINGAPORE!!!!

Thirdly, I think I screwed up my english prelim paper 1 and 2 BIG TIME. Whats the point of being positive anyway? It never helps.

Fourth, If I can't go Korea or Japan this year end, PLEASE at least bring me to HONG KONG!!!! I LOVE HONG KONG and I'm dying to go there, SERIOUSLY!!!! MUMMY PLEASEASEASEASE!!!!! I WANT TO GO DISNEYLAND!!! And NO, I'm not a 5 year old kid. MUMMY I BEG YOU!!!! I WANT TO SEE MICKEY MOUSE!!!!

(((Childish)))

Jean

Spines

Someone once told me a story.
It is either about hedgehog or porcupines. Since I couldn't remember whether it is hedgehog or porcupines and I love hedgehog more, I shall use hedgehog. :D

I've learnt something from it and I would like to share it with everyone. :D

Here goes...

During winter time, a group of hedgehog would snug together in a hole to keep each other warm. But due to the fact that their spiny sharp spines are simply to spiny and sharp. While snuggling and keeping each other warm, their spine would hurt one another. Thus to prevent the spines from hurting themselves, they would have to break away, move away and stay away from each other. But when the weather is simply too cold, they have no choice but to move in again. And when their spines hurt each other, they will have to move out again. This process occurs over and over again until winter is over.

Likewise, friends should keep a distance away from each other so that both parties or involving parties would not get hurt easily. Friendship would therefore last.

(((Sentimental)))
Jean

I found it!!!!

I FOUND ALFRED!!!!

YAY!!!!

And I thought I would lost him forever... I left it in my bag when I brought him out. :P
Thank goodness I found him!!!!
It must be a good sign!!! Something really good is going to happen I guess.

Anyway!!! ALFRED LOVE YA!!!! WELCOME BACK!!!

PS: Alfred happens to be one of my favourite name!!! It sounds cute..on bears only. I named all my bears like this: Alfred; Alfred No.1; Alfred No.2; Alfred No.3...etc :P CUTE RIGHT???

Cheers
Jean

NIcknames

I've got alot of nicknames. :D

Well, sad to say, almost all were given by Net.

She calls me "Cavewoman" because I'm very noisy. "Obasan" because she wants to annoy me. "Childish elder sis" because I never acted my age infront of her. "Noisy freak" because she thinks I'm irritating. "Oba" because she thinks 'Obasan' is too long. "Parasite" because I mentioned that I will depend on her for a living when I grow up. She will have to support me. :D "Baka" which mean idiot, because she really thinks I'm one. "Walking idiot" because I lack of common sense. "Log" because I sleep like one.... etc

Shame on her. I'm her big sister you know. I'm 3 years older than her you know??? And she kept citicizing me that I'm a 5 year old kid trapped in a 16 year old body. How dare she!!!
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...
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WAAA NETTO TAN!!!! YOU T-SHIRT!!!!(Because I'm Jean so she is T-shirt, she hates that nick name!!! :D) I WANT MY ICE-CREAM!!!! YOU GET AWAY FROM IT!!!!

(((SOBS... My... Ice-cream...)))
Jean

Learn it once and for all

Yuppie, it has been a week since I last blogged.

To many things to take care of, so didn't have much time to spare for my dear old blog. Please forgive me. :D

Its the class T-shirt again. Now I can definitely conclude that my life needs MANY second chances or second tries. Sick and tired of it. Not going in to it, since its already over. No point fretting now. I could safely say that, the class tee feud should be over by now. Its sunshine over the rain!!!

I know perfectly well that what I am going through now is an experience gained. Theres a big possibility that it would help me in many ways when I grow up.

Forgive myself for making so many stupid mistakes. Comes to the thought of it, no one is perfect!!!

Hope the next time round when I receive the class tee, I won't feel so dejected and disappointed again.

Cheers
Jean

Why?

I'm a loser alright.
I'm only capable of disppointing everyone around me.
They are looking so forward into receiving the class tee, and one message from me crashed their dreams.
I so sorry guys.. I so sorry.
I'm such a muddle head and I'm such a disppointment.
I don't know how could I make amendments to all of you.... I don't know what to say.

Why?? Why can't things just go according to plan???!!! Why everything just doesn't go right???!!! Why???!!! WHAT HAVE I DONE WRONG????!!! WHAT HAVE I ACTUALLY DONE??? YOU HAVE TO TOY AROUND MY FEELINGS AND GIVE ME SO MANY PROBLEMS??? WHY CAN'T YOU FOR ONCE, LET ME ACCOMPLISH SOMETHING, WITHOUT PROBLEMS AND LET ME SUCCEED AT THE FIRST TRY???

I am so tired. I'm so frustrated.
Whatever I do, never fails to fail me at the first try. In regardless of the emcee job during the new year concert, my chinese o'level, my math o'level, my class tee...etc NOW WHAT??? RUIN MY ACTUAL O'LEVELS TOO???
So what does these phenomenon means???? I didn't do enough??? Then to what extent is considered as ENOUGH??? I've done so much... and yet it is still not enough. So does this conclude that I'M A LOSER?????

I HAD IT!!! I REALLY HAD IT!!! YOU HAPPY???

Jean

Party and Babysit!!!

Previously, I told everyone that I want 6 kids when I get married. I'd even got the names ready!!! Now I've changed my mind.... I want more!!! HAHAHAHA!!! KIDS ARE SO ADORABLE!!!!

Yesterday was my dad's, Xavier's, aunt Joyce's and Isabel's (July Babies) birthday BBQ party at my aunt Belinda and uncle Felix's place. Two days before the party, I received a message from aunt Belinda. She wanted me to look after baby Anthea for an hour while she attends piano lesson with Xavier. Well, being a children lover, I agreed immediately. So yesterday, Net and I went all the way down to Woodlands Causeway Point to meet aunt Belinda for lunch and after that was just me, Net and Anthea alone loitering around at mall.

As you know, an average mall has a height of 5 to 6 stories. When I saw Anthea in a pram, I'm stunned. My first reaction was:"Oh dear, how am I going to bring her in a pram up with an escalater???" Then aunt Belinda asked me to give it a try. Though the whole trying out process went well, my palm was soaked with perspiration. I felt like I'd been on a roller coaster ride or I'm peforming an acrobat stunt. But sooner or later, I've gotten the hang of it.

Well, I really felt awkward as I looked like a 16 year old girl pushing a baby stroller with a baby girl in it, loitering about in a mall. I could sense the people there were thinking that I'm an underage and unwed mother bringing my daughter out for a walk at the mall. BUT PEOPLE!!!! SHE AIN'T MY DAUGHTER!!! SHE IS MY BABY COUSIN!!!! HAHAHA what a joke!!!

When night fell, we started the BBQ party. Well... I had been chasing after Xavier all around the place with a bowl of rice, trying very hard to feed him. But it was all worth the hard work as I had a sense of satisfaction when dear little Xavier finished his bowl of rice.

Then Xavier was so fascinated with two little snails and spent most of his time playing with snails and "abandoned" me. So I went loking for Anthea. She really likes to eat. When I'm eating something, she would say "mum-mum" (Baby language for "I want to eat too" or "I'm hungry") In this case, she was trying to say that she wants a bit of my food. CUTE!!!

It has been a long time when all of us come together and enjoyed ourselves. I'm glad to know that everyone is doing well in every aspect of our life and we are working hard to achieve our goals.

I always enjoyed this kind of gatherings. Though when occasionally unhappy things would happen, but all of these would naturally just come and go.

I hope there would be more of such gatherings and parties so that everyone could come together and somehow stay "United". :D

Jean

Hunch

I told my daddy...

Me: I've got a hunch. Heh heh.
Daddy: What?
Me: I going to fall sick any moment now. :P
Daddy: Well... Ever since last year, you've been telling me this. And your so-called 'hunch' never did come true.
Me: Believe me! I am very sure that this time it will come true.
Daddy: Okay... we shall see about that.
Me: Be prepared to bring me to the doc, Daddy-o!!!

Thus, my hunch shall come true!!!
Muhahaha

Jean

WHAT HAVE I DONE WRONG???

OK... Seriously. I didn't sleep last night and I'm a little touchy.

Many thanks to Shaan and Adeline for acompanying my down to Braddell to check out the class tee material and size, even though today is your holiday.

Intentionally I wanted to spend 7 hours sitting infront of the PC to finish the class tee touch up by skipping my sleep, but I ended up slamming and crashing the computer over and over again for 3 hours. This dumb slow thing kept hanging on me, I was so afriad that I can't finish it on time for the printings. Thank goodness, today, Mr Ben said he could do the touch up for me. In which means that I could now sleep in peace.

Come to the thought of it. Why should I worry about all these when prelims are just around the corner? Why should I sacrifice my sleep, spend so many hours drawing, worrying, correcting, dying to finish something that won't even help me to excel in my exams??? Why am I the one expected to contact the manufacturer, and pull 2 of my friends early in the morning to go down all the way to Braddell just to check on the materials, sizes and if allow to, place order on my holiday??? I didn't volunteer myself this job you know??? I really could have just searched the net, find myself a picture and say:"HEY!!!! Thats the design for our class tee shirt!!!" But I chose to draw, I chose to stay up all night just to colour and draw out the work. When I don't know how to do something, I am expected to learn because somehow or rather I am incharge of this thing, I can't be so irrseponsible and push all of this job to my friends.

So... I've done nothing.... Yup thats right, I've DONE NOTHING AT ALL.
All my sacrificed nights had gone down the drain. I'm such a failure. Spent so many hours working and yet I produced nothing at all. If I produced nothing, how come theres a design of our T shirt being shown to the manufacturer???

I don't want to claim credits. I just want your understanding, I can't hold on any longer I need people to share my workload. Should you think my workload aren't heavy enough to push this task to you or you think my reason of letting you handle this task aren't justifying and convicing enough, try encountering the time when the computer won't cooperate, the time won't cooperate, the schedule won't cooperate, so many things else won't cooperate with you when you are dying to work something out of the blue. Should you think that coordinating something like this is easy. Try it yourself.

WHY??? What have I done wrong??? I just want to rest. Can't I just take a break??? I've been praying that I would fall sick somehow, so at least I could give myself a period of time to take a breather, am I charged guilty for begging time to rest???

I'm not a smart person. All I know is to look straight and act according to things planned. I don't know how to react to immediate situations and I can't accept changes. But I know what are my duties and what are not.

I have my own problems and things to deal with, and should this be the situation I would face in the future when I start working. I'll take back my words. I rather not grow up.

(((Frustrated)))
Jean

Better STOP your NONSENSE

You know, I HATE it when people criticize, malign or backstab my sister. I will go all out and deal with those people who disturb my sis. And I MEAN it.

So dear PXXXXXXA,
STOP IT before I actually lay my hands on this matter you fill me???

(((Fuming)))
Jean

Soup, Simplicity, Stress

3 things to talk about:"Stress, Simplicity and Soup".

Nope, I'm not playing with alliteration and of course I'm not going to be poetic. Just pure coincidence that all of these 3 words start with a 'S'.

Stress
Too many things needs me to decide and handle. I simply don't know how to explain. Class tee. Daddy offered his help but I didn't accept. I insisted that I accomplish something myself. Thanks daddy, I appreciate your help but no thanks, I need to learn to go through all these somehow. Although this is a happy post, I'm writing it in a frustrated and stressed out mood.

Simplicity
Xavier came yesterday!!! I'm so delighted. I realised, kids have the ability to take my troubles away. At the very least, temporary. Again, I emphasize the word Simplicity. Kids are the best examples. They think and derive things based according to simple logic. But then again, their simplicity won't last very long. Soon they will be influenced by all sorts of things around them and then... no more innocent baby.

Soup
Net had a terrible Soup Day on Friday. According to Net, during her recess, Miss Soh accidentally spilled soup on her. Net told me that she had promised Miss Soh not to tell me about this incident, but eventually she spilled the beans to me, HAHAHA.
So PS: Dear Miss Soh, if you happen to read this post, don't blame my sis. I talked her into confessing :P.
After that, we went to Century for dinner. Both of us ordered Japanese food. Then somehow, I spilled my MISO soup on her.
OOPS!!!!
Haha guess she had a serious issue with Miss Soh and MISO that day.


((((Mixed feelings))))
Jean

Chunks

Thanks goodness!!! Sunshine after the terrible storm!!!
HAHAHA!!!
All back to normal again!!! WOO YEAH!!!

Seriously, I must admit, there is a serious problem with me on the eyes. Last week, Ruo Ning asked me to do the 2006 O level Social Studies SBQ, so that we will have something to ask or discuss about during the SS consultation with Miss Soh today. But at the very minute when the consultation starts, I realised, I did the 2004 O level Social Studies SBQ!!! The funny part was, I named the piece of work as :"06 O'level SBQ" and my answers were from 2004 O level SBQ!!!

Another sign of ageing. Guess my self-fulfilling prophecy is coming true!!! I AM ageing!!!

I feel like having a HUGE cup of coffee now. I'm so tempted by Miss Soh's large cup of coffee just now, that I went to buy myself a can of ice coffee immediately after the consultation. And now, I am craving for more. :P Oh no... My addiction for coffee is coming back again. Just GREAT.

My guitar string snapped again!!! Need to change it immediately!!! ARGH!!!! It is so irritating!!! Can't play it for the time being... SOB!!!

I'm so careless. I actually misplaced my beloved bear, ALFRED!!!! OH NO!!!! ALFRED!!! WHERE ARE YOU!!!!

((((Sobbing))))

Jean

Last post for JUNE.

Recently, I went to review all of my previous entries.

To be very truthful, I find myself quite irritating. Especially, during the times when I'm bored, when I just post/update for the sake of posting/updating. Thats the time when I would totally waste my time crapping away and blog nonsense.

Thus, I find myself quite irritating, at times. :D

I don't like to explain myself, I never like explaining. No matter how I'm being maligned, I simply refused to explain. For I think explanation is somehow, indirectly equivalent to, connected to, related to, or rather, simply lies. In the other words, to me, most of the explanations are covered with lies. Inregardless of white lies or just lies that hurts.
Besides, who would bother to listen, who would bother to care about what my explanations are??? Especially when they were so worked up over something, so agitated that they simply just can't listen to anyone.

Thus, why bother to explain??? :P

I get agitated and irritated easily recently. Must be the heat, I assumed. Adding on to that terrible terrible heat, STRESS is one of the factors that I really can't stand. (FOR GOODNESS SAKE!!! DON'T ASK ME TO SIT!!!) Too many things on my hands rushing to meet those drawing-near deadlines. Come on... I'm still a kid, like a 5 year old kid trapped in a 17 year old body!!! I don't know how much longer I could hold on to these things.

I'm going to BLOW!!!

Great... another annoying, meaningless, unorganized entry to vent out my thoughts, to vent my anger and frustrations, to pend down my reflections.

Hmmm... I wonder... how much would I score for my composition, if I would write like this during my exams??? Nah... I'm just wondering. Won't take it seriously. Besides, I'm not that dumb to risk my grades for just one useless experiment right???

But then again.... Am I???

Nonsensical
Jean

Done with it!!!

After 2 days of hard work, the final design of class tee shirt is finally done!!!!

WOO HOO!!!

Happy day!!!!

Jean

Run away

Finally, it had reached the state that I dreaded going home, wished to turn in early, so that I wouldn't face all of these nonsense.

我始终选择逃避，始终选择不去面对。

我开始习惯早睡。并不是因为我想过什么健康的生活。而是因为只有睡觉，进入梦乡，我才能把现实生活所经历的不悦暂时抛到脑后或九霄云外。可是每当早晨一觉醒来，我就会感到惋惜，为何梦里的美好，不可以延续下去。为什么，现实那么残酷。

讨厌放学不想回家，我想也是我逃避的一种策略。因为一回家，就必须面对问题，脑子就必须不停的想方法解决，而我又会开始心烦意乱，就会想早点进入梦乡。这种恶性的循环，还得维持多久？

什么时候？我们一家人又可以恢复，像以前一样开心呢？

我想现在，也只有亲情才有法子把我烦得团团转....

Jean

如果

有个想法...
我觉得...
不可以硬把一个人带到一个并不属于他的地方。
TMS太复杂，我觉得单纯的睿根本不适合那里。可能一开始，我们就不应该把他带到那里。可能一开始，我们就错了。如果一开始，睿没去TMS可能他会快乐一点。可能...这一切一切的纷争就不会开始。

我常在想“如果”。“如果这事没发生那该有多好”，“如果..如果...”

虽然我知道，如果的事，永远不会发生。但我却每次一遇到不如意的事，我就会情不自禁的想∶“如果...希望时间倒流...”之类的话。

虽然很可笑，很傻，但我还是得说∶“如果纷争没发生...该有多好？？？”

Jean

I'm ageing....

Now... I can't even stay up all night like I used to when I was young. I can even fall asleep when I was reading my favourite Archie Comics, Japanese Manga or watching television.

Conclusion: I AM GETTING OLD!!!!!

Great... All my teeth will fall off in no time... To think that I've just removed my braces.... What's the point man... What's the point????

OOOOHHHH!!! I AM GETTING OLD!!!!

Terrible news!!!!

And... Again... I am very bored... Just ignore me... I just want to get attention... :P

Adios!!!

ZnO